Keyshmarie

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This is my LIFE

 I am 13 Hispanic 5"4'

Is that enough for you? Do you want to know more about me?

There isn't anything else to say

I stick out like a sore thumb Most everywhere I go

Never knowing where to go, Never knowing who to ask for directions. Lost in my own skin.

Coming from a large, close Hispanic family. Sticking up for eachother. Sticking to each other like peanut butter and jelly. Close, yet so far away. Knowing that I am welcome And feeling left out, but loved

 Last Hour of the Iceman __National Geographic__

1991 The Frozen Body A man who lived 5,300 years ago In the glacier Aps Killed by an arrow To the back During an ambush

Sweet Sun

The sweet loving sun on my tan skin. Warming me from outside in, Looking up, wondering what its like to be him. Wouldn't he be all bored up there, all alone? He needs a friend during the day. Someone to call his own. I need a friend too, I need someone to call my own.

<span style="color: #ffa200; font-family: Georgia,serif;">Sweet little ants on that small planet. Poor little ants, They have no idea what its like to be as big as me. They think they know everything. But they don't know anything. They will never see or feel as I have. The many stars and planets to keep me company. They don't understand

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Flashing Traffic Lights

Flashes of blood-red light in your eyes <span style="color: #0000ff; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS',Helvetica,sans-serif;">Strobe lights at a boring party <span style="color: #ff0000; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS',Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: 120%;">Flashing glowsticks <span style="color: #0000ff; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS',Helvetica,sans-serif;">Pulse of red light <span style="color: #ff0000; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS',Helvetica,sans-serif;">Beating heart in a black hollow chest Numbers popping out at you on a math test <span style="color: #ff0000; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS',Helvetica,sans-serif;">Keys yelling out at you to touch them, on a keypad Sweet drops of blood bulging together to form numbers of unspocken words <span style="color: #ff0000; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS',Helvetica,sans-serif;">Flashing red blood cells Dots and lines of red ink on black paper <span style="color: #ff0000; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS',Helvetica,sans-serif;">Red tattoos on your warm skin: <span style="color: #0000ff; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS',Helvetica,sans-serif;"> Numbers on alarm clock, March 30th, 6:33 p.m., bedroom.

<span style="color: #800080; display: block; font-family: 'Arial Black',Gadget,sans-serif; font-size: 120%; text-align: right;"><span style="color: #ff00ff; font-family: 'Comic Sans MS',cursive; font-size: 90%;"> Heart Broken

<span style="color: #15c6c6; font-family: 'Courier New',Courier,monospace;">Heart broken and lonely the two things now, that make me feel unloved. Unloved and unwanted by the one that doesn't even know me.

Why do you ask me so? Why ask if I love you now if tomorrow you will throw me aside?

Leave me here. Dying as such, a procarious sin. Want of love, need of hate.

Sweet sins bear me not. Love me sweet, as ripe strawberries in June, like sweet lavender in my bath.

Love me with your sweet melodies of hope, and never stop loving.

<span style="color: #ff0000; display: block; font-family: Tahoma,Geneva,sans-serif; font-size: 90%; text-align: left;"><span style="color: #00ff00; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS',Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: 110%;"> Without you

Without you I'd have no where to hide No where to run No where to block away the noise

<span style="color: #23fb28; font-family: Tahoma,Geneva,sans-serif; font-size: 90%;">But it doesn't matter now You're not here Let me be brave and fight my own battles Let me stop waiting for you to protect me from everything You're not here

Let me get over myself Let me go up against my enemies on my own Let them find out what my name is without your help <span style="color: #23fb28; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS',Helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: 90%;"> Without you its not even worth the fight Not worth the wait

It doesnt matter anymore You're not here ​

<span style="color: #ffa200; display: block; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS',Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: right;">In Your Presence

<span style="color: #508be2; display: block; font-family: Verdana,Geneva,sans-serif; font-size: 90%; text-align: right;">In your presence its like no one can bring me down. Like there's no one there at all. Like its just you and me, the stars, the moon, the sun, and the sky. Nothing more and nothing less.

Your lips against mine. Your warm finger tips on my cheek. Your breaths slow and even.

No more than another night of starring up at the stars. In your prssence.

<span style="color: #23fb28; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS',Helvetica,sans-serif;"> Hello Stranger

<span style="color: #008000; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS',Helvetica,sans-serif;">It all starts the same. With one word. A hello. Then you add on the years of friendship. The years of love. Then the months of hate. And then the years of marriage. Of children. Of grand-children. And then death. It all started with a simple hello. No more than that.

<span style="color: #ff0068; display: block; font-family: 'Lucida Console',Monaco,monospace; text-align: right;"><span style="color: #ff0068; font-family: 'Lucida Sans Unicode','Lucida Grande',sans-serif;">Sometimes

<span style="color: #ff00ff; font-family: 'Lucida Sans Unicode','Lucida Grande',sans-serif;">Sometimes I look at you andlong for freedom For a time to get away For a time to feel the warm sand between my toes

Sometimes I hear your heartbeat in my head Your breath on my skin Your lips on my neck

Sometimes I feel like I cant live anymore Like there isn't a point in living without your presence Without your touch Without your warmth

<span style="color: #be00ff; font-family: Georgia,serif; font-size: 120%;">The Rain

I can always feel the soft prickle of water on my skin From the hot summer day The very first time I saw you The first time I knew I loved you

I can always feel the warm water on my body I love it as much as I love you It doesn't make sense on how mcuh I love you

But the rain is 100 times different

<span style="color: #15c6c6; display: block; font-family: 'Comic Sans MS',cursive; text-align: right;"> I hate you

I hate you says so much about the way I don't feel about you I don't hate you I love you I love you with all my heart

But yet sometimes I get very tempted in telling you In telling you something that isn't true The three words that have tempted me for years now

I hate you And you know what? I'm not sorry I said that You need to realize this I wont be here forever And I hate you So get over it

<span style="color: #ffff00; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS',Helvetica,sans-serif;"> Get Over It

Get over the times we spent together Get over how much you hurt me Get over yourself I will never go back to you

I hate you Get over that too

I don't like you You bring me nightmares You're the thing I hate the most in this world The thing that I wouldn't save The thing I would be cruel to for the rest of my life I know I sound mean But I don't care I just don't like you

You might as well get over everything Get over the memories They wont be special memories anymore To tell you the truth They wont be worth remembering

SO GET OVER IT!!!!!!!!!

<span style="color: #be00ff; display: block; font-family: 'Lucida Sans Unicode','Lucida Grande',sans-serif; text-align: right;"> You are

You are The one that accepted me The one that I wont forget The one that I don't want to remember

You are The loser The wanna-be The one who doesn't like me

You are My worst nightmare My loser of a "friend"

You know who are I don't have to remind you And trust me I want to So don't tempt me

<span style="color: #ff0068; font-family: Impact,Charcoal,sans-serif;"> Stop

Stop your selfish words of misery Stop your complaining Stop your late night crying sessions

Stop everything your doing and look at me Look at your friend and tell me that your sorry

I know how you feel But you have to stop Stop your words of uncertainty Stop everything your doing to hurt yourself When you hurt yourself, your hurting me Stop hurting me Just stop it He isn't worth your tears

Stop it already ;-D

<span style="color: #d800ff; display: block; font-family: Georgia,serif; text-align: right;">Why do you love him?

He hurts you He makes your life miserable He hates your guts He smashes your feelings into a million pieces Why do you love him? Is it because of the way he looks? Is it beacause of his beautiful green eyes? Is it because he loves me? Is it because I don't love him? Tell me... Answer my questions I want to understand I love you You're my best friend You're my blondie I want to know this Why do you love him?

In Love and War

Love is like a battlefield of emotions First you love him Then you want to rip his heart out Tear him limb from limb

Take him from her Doesn't she understand? You love him... And its like what they say.. All's fair in love and war ;-P

<span style="color: #008080; display: block; font-family: 'Palatino Linotype','Book Antiqua',Palatino,serif; text-align: right;">Why do you hate me?

Why do you hate the way I talk? Why do you hate the way that I act around you? Why do you hate my love? Why do you hate who I am?

Why do you hate that I hate you? Why do you even care? You hate me, so why can't I hate you? Is it because you just hate the idea of me hating you?

Well guess what? To bad... I hate you... But why do you hate me?

I remember

As I look into your watery eyes... One green and one brown ... I remember all the good times that we have had together... I remember the first time that we met... I remember the look of happiness that you had plastered on your face... I remember the time I walked down the aisle and you at the alter... I remember the time we had our first child, and then our second and third... I remember our first kiss from the very begining... I remember you in my dreams every night when we slept side by side... I remember your smile, your kiss, your touch... And now I will always remember our last moment together as you say good-bye... When I look after you I see you waving good-bye... Crying back at me as I cry here with the kids.. I will always treasure you...

I'm sorry

I'm sorry I caused you pain I'm sorry for not listening For not knowing that I hurt you I'm sorry for acting like I don't care I miss you I love you And I'm sorry